slow motion in the time frame

Dispite few changes in life, am feeling my pace is slowing down lately. After Recieving a new motivational goal recently, there is more light in the otherside of the tunnel, guess the problem is how to approach to the light. How i've endup letting myself sliding inside this dark aroma of universe? its not enough to be considered as dark period of my time, more to it, i'd define this as slowing down in the time motion. I've seen this kind of situation happened with few, I used to be the one standing on the other side and reaching out of my hands to them, but now am getting to feel how they were feeling at the time, cause am going through similar stage in life as they were... It arent easy, as i have a tendency of magnifing the emotions sometimes, same emotion that helps me generate inspiration for creative projects. But to live is different case, emotions are secondary when one is urgingly pursue for an reachable goal, action is often generate before emotions.

I donno how far i can carring on the bluh, as i need to regurgitate this kinds of negative attitude out of my system as soon as possible... i feel warm and appreciative to recieve a wakeup call this morning, but little angry at myself of wasting such effort by falling back to sleep again >_<.. cursesss of da golden flower... oh i mean sleeping fairyyy....

add oil!!!