Blind ambitions

Its probably too much for me to think at this hour and after a tiring day of work and party. But i realllly reallly want to say that love is blind! few friends is having emotional dramas lately, compare to the shit they are going though, i think the pile am in right at the moment just arent as big. But yet again life is 10% what happens and 90% how we react, we can chose to be happy, many just dont realise it, rather they start to depends on other things. I dont mind to lent them my shoulder for tears or comfort, but i hope they could understand there is no one else to carry the burden but their own shoulder.

Anywaaayz, today i've stepped into this secondhand book store hiding in Caringbah. Ohhhh i guess its da joy of da day. Felt so much like a kid lost in those old school lolly store. i like smell of old book, feeling very peaceful. bought two books under both $10. One is called the sunken kindom fully discover the Atlantis mystery, i love historical myth, to me they are reality fictions. Another book is called orange langhter, didnt really pay attention to the font cover till i turned it over, it explores the tangle of secrets and lies that make up the stories of its three main potagonists. An individual with a complex history and a heart full of painfull secrets arent plain anymore...emm am having trouble of stopping myself buying books every time i've step into an interesting book store, well maybe that could explain why am so broke always :P ...

Sooo.. it seems that i've lost my initial point, and its really time for bed, otherwise i dont want to drive like a panda next day, a tip for whoever is having an emotional crisis right now, a good quality sleep is just so much helpfull for balancing back odd moods, at least it works well on me.

Si Scott design

typography focused designer, this is when typography went trippyyyyy~

Flip Flap

life is a flip flap, struggle to keep yourself busy. At same time try to find things that fascinate you. I've recently started my working experience at a japanese teppanyaki, thanks for my dear friend's 'hook up'. The boss is quite young, though very experienced, and people working there are really friendly hardworking bunch. During the two days of training i've learnt a lot from others, not only about the way my work operates, as well as human negotiation. Ah no emo tonight, cos i want to talk about the exciting part of teppanyaki, which is the performance from its chef. stylish with sense of flaming action, seriously if i had a chance i will get my hands on the grill, well perhaps not literally lol..

Am back to stone age painting style, brush and canvas, it feels awesome, cos while am painting i would take my time listen to tripy music and sort out my thoughts. Down the roads am still searching for my aims in life and fighting for it.

On top of everything, am hoping all my friends whose struggle with life at the moment are healthy and fully motivated, just to let you all know, you are having my every support and caring, just as am start tasting the hardship of life and enjoying every step when i made forward. love ya allll \(^A^)/

random blubbering

As I was suffering from low emotional pms and stress from filming past few day. After a solid 12 hours of sleep, i've successfully mode my face into my beloved pillow and recovered. Ahhhh.. nice feeling to be awake and breathing. Had an very easy day today, well mostly day dreams, donno why maybe because of my good quality of sleep (which always an essential issue to my very own happiness). Felt supper happy to a level my mind went unscrewed and some parts falls out. hehehe.. em maybe thats why senpei was correcting my kata today at karate class. He said well ur kata needs more kime and u seems day dreaming so ur hands and arms was like wheaaaaa... all over the place. Meh, i shall practise my kata and get grade by end of May, cannot be 'evergreen'.

Wellly welllllly welll, glad to get to know bit well with my new friends, makes me feel that am moving forward. but still havent heard from Mr Y, for which i know he's having so much shit at his end, just hope for the best. Cos it made me feel a bit guilty of enjoying the peace am having at the moment. On top of that may i say its a such pleasure to know tashi, during the road trip home yesterday we were connecting so well and shared a lot of deep thoughts towards cultural and people. I've always enjoy random converstations merge into profundity level.

on top of that i miss beijing and my family friend there, and i wish to live overseas on my own for a period in my life time. ohwell its bed time again!

cute

best cure

Think you had enough shit of the day? well before u let ur emotions totally wanking off, or perhaps regret for some irresponsible actions later on... just grab a book of any form, any language, taken it into a quite corner and bloody read. A good way of consume those unnecessary thoughts is to insert your mind with something else.

Sometimes, we are unable to predict things from randomly happening. Hopefully we dont loss our mind in it before taking any actions. I've always believe as one door close another will open, and random opportunities are like those doors, we might not know whats behind it, at least we have a choice of taking that chance for exploration, the only thing we are rancing against is the time we had in our hands.

Bad morning always cause me regurgitate in the late afternoon. Glad something came out before the day finishes, i mean why leave that ugly phase overnight if you can fix it right now? (^_^), am not going to appologise for those harsh words i've used in this blog, cos their served their purpose of been used.

\(o^A^o)/ weeeeelllllll feeling much better now, you've always have choice to be happy, just depends on how you see things through.

What next?

Great screening of 'The dealer' has finished gloriously lastnight. Been proud of my team. Hoping for the best turn out after this screening, this could be where we really start with film industry. But truly everyone deserves a decent break. Funny though, cos i've been feeding myself on water during after screen party at the good old imperial hotel. Curses of DA P PLATE!!~~~ \(*A*)/
But believe or not I've had a great time without getting tipsy or sober. For the whole night i've been busly catching up with ppl, even the new ones' i've met at the night were super friendly. Never thought i'd be out reaching and talkative to those new ones without help of the alcohol.. power of da water hehe. Glad to catchup with Sid and gets our design inspirations going before mine dies from this current layback lifestyle which i dont really appreciate. Catching up with old ones and getting to know new ones really gets my mind frame on the thinking mode. Plus some old memories flows back little, well life is a dish which has mixture of tastes, experience comes from memories of those different spices in life. Dont always hoping for the sweet taste, it may cause your tooth decay. :P Life moves on, and am looking forwards to it, i guess thats enough for me to know at the moment.

mehhhhhhh, maybe its MC time, been woken up with an unpleasant dream this morning before my alarm clock strikes...and i couldnt fall back to sleep anymore... ~(O_O)~ it was realistically motion captive... ohwell, at least i had an early morning to start with. SO ganbadai Dannni dont let current stage threat your vision towards life!!

Friendship or more?

Such question kept me engaged in the past few days, it sure starts off with a simple friendship, did not expect anything, and infact did not think much at all. But doesnt most thing starts like that? I have my very reason to keep all these to myself at the current stage, but at the same time afraid of lossing something I've gained. Becoming greedy is the phase am afraid, wanting for more than this relation could offer... from the past experience, if you let off your guard for greediness to fill up that little space inside you. Two things might happen, one this friendship would end, things that you treasure will no longer endure. Second, this friendship would upgrade and a new form of relation would taken into place. For me, am stuck in the middle, waiting for my call to choose. However, time is such a powerfull thing, nothing would survive the baptism of time . . . not even this affection slowly blossom inside me.

This is how I grow up

Have you ever see a talking panda who walks like a human? Well neither do I ! The women who gave birth to me used to tell me that I was found in rubbish dump, how creative, well am gonna tell my children and children's children they are descendant of a talking panda . . .

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logo desu, see if i can load into the top bar, up up and away~~~~

2007的杂草精神

New start ?? looks like i've abandon the msn space live and move into here now. \(^o^)/ lets just say unemployment does produce some urges for creativity or kills it. Whichever it is, am here and wanting to blog... Its been a quite chill out day today, only thing wakes me up is the bright afternoon sunlight and silent surrounding, for me its a bless, but i dont quite know how long i can enjoy this kind of peace for. My war is near, war for freedom...wooohh! ha that graphical beheaded scene from 300 is still stuck in my head, after all, watching it from IMAX is an roller coaster experience for both my eyes and head, hope whoever sitting next to me yesterday is feeling fun too, a never rest one. q(~..~)p. ANY hoo, comic time!