waiting game

Everything of what's going to happen this month has been postponed! How weird is that? got postponed on a film project, a photo shoot, a job position, a visit from bestie. And my fav OZ sunlight get postponed too, just feel been surrounded by this kind of gloomy darkness at the moment. ~_~ well if clouds do clear up, and same as in those postponties, am realllly reallly hope they wont happen all at once, cos buy the time i'd be hating the fact am lacking an evil twin sister who can cover for me.

life is a biatch

Its matter of been screwed or screwing right back at it.

I consider myself lucky, as i never had any real hardship in my life so far, but it doesnt mean when i've over hear other ppl's tough time in life it would made me appreciate my life more. I would feel sad cos i could never be able to feel how they are going through life. esp if its someone i care for are going through that phase, made me feel i wants to support them even if am not there for them. So fuck the idealistic of fairness, life is never fair . . .

I would not giveup of been an real designer, this hibernation period of mine will end soon. As am becoming less fear of this biatch so called life.